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Hannah, the Silent Storm, has a birthday

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In the world of advertising, learning is a many scattered thing. Currently reading about the history of Manila, and never thought that these facts ever existed: http://en.wikipilipinas.org/index.php?title=Metro_Manila

Physical, Mental, and Emotional Exhaustion

Aside from having my heart broken every weekend, I have been trying to live in different dimensions since the month started, and until now, I haven't found the sense of having to breathe. Unknowingly, I have been able to suppress and constrict all my feelings and knowledge of what I have been going through between me, myself and him.

I am so tired. I can only describe things in as much as metaphors can allow, because I have lost the capacity to say them all straight out, objectively, and I lost my trust for everything.

Because everything, in just one snap, can vanish.

What you thought that matters much, can just be treated with so much indifference.

It just keeps on happening. They keep coming.

And I'm just tired.

I don't want to go through another of that pain again. Ever.

All I see in the future is a life without...

Everything is nothing. Even if we slit our throats, the pain is nothing. Blood would seep through our shirt and trickle down the floor, and it is just nothing.

‎"I am the solitude that asks and promises nothing; That is how I shall set you free. There is no love; There are only the various envies, all of them sad." - from W. H. Auden's "In Praise of Limestone" (quoted by Sir Nico)

But Really

This day is very happy. I enjoyed the long hours of walking without any worries at all. With a sense of contentment and enthusiasm. VTR in Makati, then bonding with Poli at SM and i really had fun!

We really have to understand the real meaning of life before we take it at its face value. Things are deeper than how they really are. If you understand life, you will learn that:

1. Jealousy is natural and at the same time pointless.

2. Nothing owns us, we own nothing.

3. Obsession is not reality. You only magnify things that are not really important.

4. One thing might be important above others, but there is no such thing as the only important thing.

5. Don't take your words today. They will all be different tomorrow.

6. Worries are worries and will only stop being worries if we want.

7. We can always run away.

8. There are formulas on how to live life. But don't expect the results are all the same.

9. Life is not that wonderful. It is something you have to survive in.

10. Dapat gumagawa ako ng paper instead ng pagblog.

Himlay at Random

Stop and go.

With winding paths and long roads.

Metro Manila traffic.

Eyewater. Cheekdampens.

Heartpoundeth.

Papertear.

I want a future with you. That's all I want right now.

Rapid eraser. Memory reformat.restart.reboot.

Engineered pathways. Planned intersections.

Crowded. Alone.

Wakeless sleep.

Lay. On your lap with your hand on my shoulder.

Freeze.

Until we wake up at the right moment.